it seems like everything you do affects me. i myself don't even know why. i am facing my problem with lots of guts but why is it not helping at all? in fact, it makes me drop even deeper, far far far down under the ground.
some will say that i am looking trouble for myself. one of my friend said i am poking myself with that particular knife. it hurts a lot. but it's better for me to get hurt than seeing you worry and sad. i don't have the guts to ignore you. i always want to know your condition. but it's not my place to know about your doings. that's why i always hears from friends around. trying to get your news. but yet, what you told me and what i heard is always different. why? why you don'y want to let me know the actual situation and events. i just don't understand. finding out myself the truth is more terrible than you cheating on me. why? sigh* don't want to care more. it's not my business after all.
let the river flows by itself.
some will say that i am looking trouble for myself. one of my friend said i am poking myself with that particular knife. it hurts a lot. but it's better for me to get hurt than seeing you worry and sad. i don't have the guts to ignore you. i always want to know your condition. but it's not my place to know about your doings. that's why i always hears from friends around. trying to get your news. but yet, what you told me and what i heard is always different. why? why you don'y want to let me know the actual situation and events. i just don't understand. finding out myself the truth is more terrible than you cheating on me. why? sigh* don't want to care more. it's not my business after all.
let the river flows by itself.
November 12, 2007 at 10:22 AM
you feel that way, because you have this beautiful virtue in you, that you care..and sometimes, when we care too much for the wrong type of person, we ended up hurting ourselves..this is inevitable..it's a good thing that happen in us, but we have to control it..give it to someone who deserve it, then we wont be feeling that neglected after all..trust me on this..=)
take k! 8 more days to go~!
jaz.
xoxo