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Finally I met all of you. =) Not I want meet you guys but you two come until my doorstep. Want reject also cannot. What a fascinating method of forcing me meet you guys. Bravo!! Just saying all this jokingly k? Don't get mad about it ya. You two really are 'brothers' for life.

Boy, cheer up! You are the one who always advice me but you yourself can't manage yourself. Be strong okay? Need anyone to talk to, I am here. Hope you will be alright as soon as possible. Big hug for you. =) You know yourself.

Thanks for your shoulder. =)

After I had a chat with you, I feel more release. At least there is somebody who understand my feeling. Now i know, not only me facing this kind of situation. Hope you will get over it as soon as possible too. I'm always near you if you need a shoulder to cry on. Thank you.

And thanks to all of my friends who care ----- Jas, eric, chun, zane, sheng, ting, ning, xun, lisa, mary, yee, zhu, karwei and many many others. Thank you thank you!!

ZANE!!! Thanks for calling all the way from melbourne. I was so surprised to receive your call. At first, I thought which prankster is disturbing at the time like that. Instead its you---ZANE!! You actually called at the wrong time but you overturn my mood. Thanks. =) Here is some advise from me--- don't seduce your poor bunny. =p!!

Don't worry friends. I am coming back! Take care everybody.

Thanks everyone =)

I need some time for myself. Sorry. I know this few days I have been behaving very weirdly. Especially to some of you. Sorry.

I am trying very hard to get over this matter. But~~ its hard. Maybe I am weak in this kind of matter. I am trying to be strong and back to the normal me. I am tired of it already. I just can't accept that all these is happening or should i say 'happened'? Too sudden already. There is sadness and anger in me. And sometime, revenge is in my mind. The devil is haunting my mind. But i know how to handle it.

Someday, I will get over this.

Sorry making you guys worried. =)

BRAVO!!! Finally you get what you want!! "Congratulation!"

You are the one saying:" I don't want to start any new xxxxxxxxxxxx for now." and " No no no, she is not!" And now??!! Everything you said seems to be the opposite way. YOU ARE THE MOST CRUEL GUY I EVER MET!!!

Now, i strongly believe that when something end, there is no more care in you anymore. I never thought that you would so heartless. You really leave a big damn scar deep inside. you know how it hurts? Do you ever thought of it? Maybe you don't even want to care anymore. FINE!! Then go care for her, go find her care. I am useless for you now!!

My mind is full of your words.
Thousand of words and sentences running through my mind.
Pictures flashed across my mind.

It seems like I had been in a movie.
Everything is acted out so naturally and good.

I had been a puppet.
Being played by the puppet man.
Foolish me.

It's kinda hard for me to get over this situation.
Life without you is just so different.

OLIVIA!!! Look forward!! There is so much to explore in days to come. BE STRONG!!

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Am trying to be strong.
Am trying not to shed my tears anymore.
Am trying to get use of this new life.
Am trying to stand up without you holding my hands.
AM TRYING TO GET OVER ALL THESE MATTER.

The only thing i will not try is----
I will not try to forgive you in any way.
It leaves a mark in my heart that can't recover no matter how long it takes.

W-H-Y-!

I don't know who is person. That particular person sent a message to my fs saying that he is going for another girl. I was like-----so fast!!???? Oh my goodness!!!

Last few days still saying that will stay single. CRAPS!!! Luckily i didn't fall for it.

I learnt a lesson. Never trust a guy so much!!

tHaNkzZz GuYzzZz

Thanks jas, yiizhu, chun, simon, eric... Thanks for all of your support and care. =') By the way, news really spread fast. Only jas know my link and suddenly got so many feedback. thanks

I know I have to get through this. But I really need time. I am trying my best now. =) Sorry make you guys worry.

9.9.2007, Sunday
The day that ended part of my life

In this fine morning, u greeted me. I was so pleased to received your lovely message. But in a sudden, everything changes. You told me something that I can't really accept that it is really happening. You had been asking me 'questions' few days before and I thought that you just wanna know what I feel about it. I didn't know those are hints. I just too stupid to think so swallow. Stupid me.

Since the day we met and started, I had avoided so much of my friends just to spare my time with you. But did u realise it?! I don't think so. I always wait for your call or something else that we can hang out together and you always let me down. But I can forget about it because all these are small matter and I can understand. I know you got your own thing to do but did you ever thought of my feeling? Although I don't really show it out because I don't want you to be frustrated with my problem. Seeing you smile is more important to me. Maybe you will think that I am blowing my own trumpet. But whatever i know myself.

Thousands of promises had been made but only a few has been done. For a girl, 'promise' is a huge word. You always makes promises to make me happy but...hmmmm don't think I want to say more about this anymore. So hope to change for the next girl. Wish you luck.

Pictures captured ----- as a memory. Maybe you not happy with the 'pictures'. Have you ever thought of yourself? How many pictures in your mobile phone is you and me? Don't know? So try go count it now. And how many pictures are there which you took with a girl? Maybe it means nothing to you but you never how i feel when i saw those pictures. So do you feel what i feel now? Or maybe you will try to say, you got 'our' folder in your computer. But did you update it? I don't think so because we very very long time no take pictures already.

You have such sweet mouth. I always fall for them. Maybe I am just too stupid. Or mayb I am blinded by your love?? I wonder too. I think many girls fall for them too. Thats why you have so much girls admired. And do you know because of this, I was hated by most of the girls?

You are just too perfect for me. I am not suitable for you. When I think back of all the times, I was glad that i had you before as my lover. I will never forget all the times we had together. For now, it remains as memories. Love you always. =)