9.9.2007, Sunday
The day that ended part of my life
In this fine morning, u greeted me. I was so pleased to received your lovely message. But in a sudden, everything changes. You told me something that I can't really accept that it is really happening. You had been asking me 'questions' few days before and I thought that you just wanna know what I feel about it. I didn't know those are hints. I just too stupid to think so swallow. Stupid me.
Since the day we met and started, I had avoided so much of my friends just to spare my time with you. But did u realise it?! I don't think so. I always wait for your call or something else that we can hang out together and you always let me down. But I can forget about it because all these are small matter and I can understand. I know you got your own thing to do but did you ever thought of my feeling? Although I don't really show it out because I don't want you to be frustrated with my problem. Seeing you smile is more important to me. Maybe you will think that I am blowing my own trumpet. But whatever i know myself.
Thousands of promises had been made but only a few has been done. For a girl, 'promise' is a huge word. You always makes promises to make me happy but...hmmmm don't think I want to say more about this anymore. So hope to change for the next girl. Wish you luck.
Pictures captured ----- as a memory. Maybe you not happy with the 'pictures'. Have you ever thought of yourself? How many pictures in your mobile phone is you and me? Don't know? So try go count it now. And how many pictures are there which you took with a girl? Maybe it means nothing to you but you never how i feel when i saw those pictures. So do you feel what i feel now? Or maybe you will try to say, you got 'our' folder in your computer. But did you update it? I don't think so because we very very long time no take pictures already.
You have such sweet mouth. I always fall for them. Maybe I am just too stupid. Or mayb I am blinded by your love?? I wonder too. I think many girls fall for them too. Thats why you have so much girls admired. And do you know because of this, I was hated by most of the girls?
You are just too perfect for me. I am not suitable for you. When I think back of all the times, I was glad that i had you before as my lover. I will never forget all the times we had together. For now, it remains as memories. Love you always. =)
The day that ended part of my life
In this fine morning, u greeted me. I was so pleased to received your lovely message. But in a sudden, everything changes. You told me something that I can't really accept that it is really happening. You had been asking me 'questions' few days before and I thought that you just wanna know what I feel about it. I didn't know those are hints. I just too stupid to think so swallow. Stupid me.
Since the day we met and started, I had avoided so much of my friends just to spare my time with you. But did u realise it?! I don't think so. I always wait for your call or something else that we can hang out together and you always let me down. But I can forget about it because all these are small matter and I can understand. I know you got your own thing to do but did you ever thought of my feeling? Although I don't really show it out because I don't want you to be frustrated with my problem. Seeing you smile is more important to me. Maybe you will think that I am blowing my own trumpet. But whatever i know myself.
Thousands of promises had been made but only a few has been done. For a girl, 'promise' is a huge word. You always makes promises to make me happy but...hmmmm don't think I want to say more about this anymore. So hope to change for the next girl. Wish you luck.
Pictures captured ----- as a memory. Maybe you not happy with the 'pictures'. Have you ever thought of yourself? How many pictures in your mobile phone is you and me? Don't know? So try go count it now. And how many pictures are there which you took with a girl? Maybe it means nothing to you but you never how i feel when i saw those pictures. So do you feel what i feel now? Or maybe you will try to say, you got 'our' folder in your computer. But did you update it? I don't think so because we very very long time no take pictures already.
You have such sweet mouth. I always fall for them. Maybe I am just too stupid. Or mayb I am blinded by your love?? I wonder too. I think many girls fall for them too. Thats why you have so much girls admired. And do you know because of this, I was hated by most of the girls?
You are just too perfect for me. I am not suitable for you. When I think back of all the times, I was glad that i had you before as my lover. I will never forget all the times we had together. For now, it remains as memories. Love you always. =)
September 9, 2007 at 9:32 PM
That part of your life that ended today, will relive again one day, and it will live to a even fuller and more beautiful one.
Love, is never easy. Because we tend to expect, to hope, to want. But we always forget one thing, that everyone is different. We cant mold them into what we want them to be. Not even the best girlfriend/boyfriend in the world can do that to their other half.
We learn, by falling down. After we slipped this time, and hurt ourselves badly, we cure. We heal from the cuts and bruises. And the next time, we will be more careful, and know not to run when it's slippery. We learn. This is what important in our life. We learn, so that we fall only once.
Sometimes, in a game of love, one tends to give out more than the other half. This tends to happen to everyone, every pair of lovebirds out there. It's the tolerance between them that resolves all these. But, sometimes it's just way too much to bear. And that's when this happen: to walk our own separate ways.
You neglected your friends. Now it's time to get them back. To make up what is lost. And this will never happen again, because you realized yourself through this, and in your next relationship, you wont be neglecting your friends just like how you did this time. Because you learnt.
Promises, are big things that are meant for sensitive people, not only for girls. To someone, promises seem like everything in the world. To some people, promises are just, merely words. It's understandable, people breaks promises. People made me promises, but they all break it. My best friends, my closest friends, they are all the same. It's time we learn, not to expect so much, and to accept reality. But, of course there are still people, who only make promises when they know they will keep it. I am one of them. =)
Love, is a game that both parties have to play. If only one side is playing, there will never be any good ending for anyone. When only one person is in the game, and the other had left, it's time to end the game.
Putting an end to a relationship, and you are still able to love him, for who he is, i have to say, you are a brave survivor of the game. Because you know, hatred can't solve anything, nor it can bring back anything. Just let what you two ever had stays in your heart as memories. Sometimes later, when you look back, im sure it wont be that sour, and it will still be able to bring a smile across you face.
It's inevitable to not feel sad, but treating and facing the problem with a positive attitude is always the best solution of all.
Have an open mind, and an open heart, and you will see, how life had treated you so kindly.
Be brave. I am always there for you if you shall ever need me. *hugs*
Jasper.
September 10, 2007 at 11:41 AM
yes, relationship is such a mind-blowing thing that anyone, and i mean it, ANYONE will do almost everything for it. what more to say you. however, that's not the most important part of a relationship. what's vital for you now is to stand up straight, pull yourself back together and tell the whole world that everything is ok. i personally know that you're a strong girl and will not let such things bring you down.
ask yourself, have you learnt anything at all from this relationship? have you mature at all from this relationship. judging from your post, i'm pretty sure you have. it's a good thing to learn, as jasper puts it. i quote "we learn, so that we fall only once".
a journey of a thousand miles begins with just one step forward. maybe this IS the stepping stone for you to put forth that step. every relationship has an angel in disguise. as to this relationship, that angel will also bless you without doubt.
fear not to turn to the friends you have "neglected". if they are true friends, they will always be there for you making the test of time bow down and say "i lost".
take care and you'll always be in my prayers!
September 10, 2007 at 7:32 PM
hey there!!!be strong ok..i know u will..life is not wasted..there's still much more better things to come in ur life!!take a deep breath and jz let go of it..take it something like..should i say "experience"??cheer up man!i know u're always a cheerful girl..i gonna balik kampung in 2 months time..so i'll find u whenever i got time..so jz get on with it ok..mz have the ns spirit!see u man!muakssssss p/s:plz allow anonymous..i terpaksa sign up a google account jz to leave this comment.. =P
September 10, 2007 at 8:09 PM
Chun here actually, Sorry that i cant do anything else to cheer you up now. But at least, whats over den let it be. Learn your mistake and never repeat it again in future ( like wat jas mentioned :P). So i just wish that you be fine now and hopefully to see u happy bak soon!! k? Cheer up too ya! Got anything, you can find me also lo.k? See you ! =)
September 10, 2007 at 11:12 PM
Maybe its hard for you but we are always with you matter what problems you face. Always feel free to talk and dun keep it for yourselves, it will burden you more. Since it's over now, just like simon said, "take a deep breath and jz let go of it..take it something like..should i say "experience"??"
So, live on your life as usual. Don;t worry and always be brave in whatever decision you make or going to decide. And it's true tat keeping empty promises is bad, if u cant do it just dont say it rite.
Hope you can get over this soon and hope to hear from u soon k..~!!
*We are all Missing the Happy Oli-via*
September 16, 2007 at 12:26 PM
hey gal,
it's not tat he's to gd for u but, in fact, YOU'RE TOO GOOD FOR HIM! n he doesnt deserve to have such a gf like u.
take care gal..