keeping myself as busy as possible. getting sick is even better. sleep whole day. keep my mind off everything. everytime i stopped my footstep, there is always spears aiming to my direction without any protection. all i have to do is run or somebody to hold my hand and say that everything's gonna be aright. i'm tired. i want at least a place where i can really get shelter. need to pump up my energy. life here is really so different from what i thought. people here is so much different. they are so fake. plenty of hypocrits here. i got no interest in trusting anyone from now onwards. don't wanna be so busy body to go and care for somebody which is not worth it at all. argh!!!!!!!!!!!! frustrated!!!!! wanted to scream out loud!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! life's suckss!!!
